Numbness

They say the world turns upside down

How come I am just numb

Neither angry nor depressed

Thousands of different conversations within me

But no complaints and no regrets

With lots of confusion and way more clarity

I stand here just numb

They say you will come to terms gradually

But I feel ready without knowing what's coming

Contrary to past me, no resistance to what's changing

Neither distressed nor fearless
So much chaos but feeling nothing

There is no denial and this is all real

I can't change anything this is my new normal

So I just want to relish in my numbness

With all plans on hold
Maybe no plans at all

A reset and a chance to let go

To accept I am not the one in control